or at leasts its feeling like it the past two days :)

yesterday was valentines day! and myne was amasing :)


I LOVE YOU BEEBS!!

i think im getting a cold. ive been taking my alergy meds and there not helping so i think its a c old, scratchy throte, sneezing, coughing.

my head hurts a bit.

so i thin its a cold. i just realy hope its not the flu. cuz that would suckzors..


i gets to see my davey todays agan :) hehe

im going over his house yay. :)

i cancled my theripy today cuz i realy dident feel like going. but i has it next week so im all set.

plus i has a cold.

i love me davey. i gotted these sexy dice ad we played that game last night twas cute/fun :)


hehe

i hope everyone is doing well. i am fer shure :)

much love

-Dah Jennar

Hi Guys!!!!!!

Merry Christmoose!!

hope everyone got what they wanted from santa/mom/dad/whom ever!

here my list of things people gotted me.:

a new tea kettle for boiling watters for tea and hot coco - from mom

a Hello Kitty Popcorn Popper w/ orvil reddenbalker curnals :) We all know how much i LOVE Hello Kitty hehe - from dad

NIntendo DS lite in red in black w/ pink case, tiedie decales, a hamister game and a cooking game and like a ton of stylests lol - from dad

the "Golden Compous" book set "His Dark Metareals" (ive been wanting to read the series forever, i have so far only red the goldent compous) - from dad

Lotza Candy - half from mom half from dad

Toilettries *IE: tooth brush, lotion, hair ties,lip stuff* - half from mom half from dad

Worrie dolls - from mom

a mettal puzzle game (ive all ways wated to start a colection, this one looks hard too) - from mom

Yateze *the dice game* -from daves parents

a Best Buy gift card - from my bro

a Clares gift card from my dad

dave and i both got a joint gifrt from his aunt linda of a 50 dollor gift card to the olive garden :) shes soo sweet :)

AND!!!!

my Davey cakes got me tho most beautful ring. its a little big on me but perfect for my middle finger its like a anteque rope design out lining a blue qortiz fasatid stone :)

it reminds me of that blue heart shaped stone fron tatanic  hehe :)


thats all i hope everyones christmas was good or at least a little good or had some good parts:)

im gonna repost this on my myspace :-P

Much Loves!!

Jennar!
 

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and for once im not i repeete not having a party. due t o last year sucking. tho i do love you all every one of you except me ass hole ex matt.

if you want to see me for my birthday thats okee. but the friday before im going to the movies wif me mum, and then on my birfday im gonna be with davie, if you want to stop by thats cool. ill prolli be home with him maby.

there just not gonna be any party type stuff except cake lol

if you need derections just ask me okee.

thanx. but most of you know how to get here.

i want to see most of you on or around my bday cut i miss everyone. no need to get me anything un less you want to. but if you dont have the money please dont get me anything okee. :)

(also posting this on Facebook and Myspace and Livejournal)

You Are 73% Creative

You are beyond creative. You are a true artist - even if it's not in the conventional sense of the word. You love creating for its own sake, and you find yourself quite inspired at times.

anyone wanna hang out today??

gah. i hate being home..

You Are Definitely a Hot Chick

While your little black book isn't as thick as Paris Hilton's... You get the most dates of any girl you know It's your whole five star package that attracts men - Your looks, your charm, and your ability tie a cherry with your tongue.

off to teh mall w/ my loves! byes!

Your Life is Rated R

Your life is definitely adults only. While children accompanied by parents are welcome, they'll probably be scarred for life.

hahaha hahah hahsahahahaha. i realy dont think im all thats badf tho :-P hahaha. lol lol

I Am All Done with my Painting one class. yay! today was the last day. it was a Hard class. but i has survived it <333!

im soo happy today :)

its Summer Vay K!! Wootness!!


and i is soo happy that Dunkin selld iced tea like as in freshly brued. it is sooo yummy! hehe. myne is with extra sugar, witch realy isent good for me but w/e it was a treat!

and Dunkin has little pizza and grild cheese now. i can soooo live off dunking for now on. hehe

i so would too lol

im such a fat kid haha!

i needs some more summery clothes. like cute pesenty type stuff to go with my white skurt. :)

it still f its me from last year too :-D!

and program is going great. the NAMI walk is commin up and also the art show. i may not be at the art show this year but im gonna try to be there.

and i realy realy realy hope that we start the garden club agan. that was soo fun last year. :)


and now i can go to program more. prolli after next week.

im still wating to get in to the C program. :) but i soo hope i dont run in to amy there :( uggg..

but over all im doing amasing!!

hehe


and!! i loves you sooo freagin much bf!!! Together Forevers and evers! hehe :-D

I Love you guys!!!

*XOXO!*

-Dah Jennar

Loss of power, strangth, control in my own life.
working on mending it.
pissed off in the process.
shift of power.
falling under the tide.
waves crash over my head.
hands reach in.
pull me out.
your all ways by my side.
please dont hide your self anymore.
i miss the signs.
i miss the energy.
i miss your voice.
Nan, are you still there?
are you still with me?
give me a sign.
i want that power back.
to speak to, to feel, the dead.
well not all just you.
i want that connection to the earth agan.
i feel it slipping from my hands.
i need someone to gide me back to inner peace.
Love, will you be that person.
not to replace her but to guyed me back.
to the way i was for that short period of time.
but with out the sad ness.
I Crave Sun Light!
I Crave The Warm Water Agan..
The Ocean, Borderland Park.
I I I miss warm days.
when will this long winter end.
winter all ways makes me soo depressed, the rain the snow. the cold.

I want sunny days back.
i miss the sun i miss the green, i miss the salty ocean blue.

i miss the sand, in between my toes.

with this new love a new life should come about too.

i need that connetion to the earth agan.

(okee i think im done)

Im having a good day <3

and if this was me about a year ago, id say today sucked.

i started my day off with anxiety. its a long story thats i retold and fue times and isent even worth the efert repeating.

but i just sat on the steps going up the the offaces at program. and cryed a little. the the head of the program Andy came and sat down next to me and said whats up jenna. and i said im anxous and agatated and it only happnes when im here. when im not here im happy positive and at my best. and we both came to an agreement that i should possibly move on from pathways. esentualy gradute some time this spring. i think that was a great idea. he then asked me how my mom would feel about it. cuz in the beginning she was very gungho about me going. and i said "you know andy shes been telling me even before i knew i fent this way that she thiought program was bringing me down and that i did a lot better out side of here" "i think shell be happy for me"

and we both smiled at eachother and he said hed talk to my treetment cwordernater Trish and the rest of the team. about me graduating.


and a nother thing that made my day today: i was talking to my friend lisa. and she said "jenna, i hope you do graduate soon, not that i dont want to see you go. frankly your wayy to high functuning to be here now."


and that ment soo much to me.

basicly high functing means that im too advansed emotional then everyone else there to realy be going there.


and lately a whole lot of people have been saying to me i should go in to the mental health field. :) thats something to consider.


so basicly im doing realy realy well :)

everything with dave is going amasingly well :)

heheheh... well talk about one of the reasons later.. haha


(some of you may allreddy know hehe)


and im loving all the new music i bought off itunes <3


especialy this "The Cat Empire" cd "Two Shoes"


it make me soo hyper/happy/elated


and makes me want it to be summer NOW!


its soo very party music.

i just wish more of my friends like what i like.

music wise..


hehe

dave likes everything i like :)

we have that in commonm. every band i send him he eather likes or loves :)

and he turned me on the the pehonom that is lemon Demon <333 and *Our Song* "Geeks In Love" hehe


well im off to chit chat and such.

ttuguys laterzz :)



-Teh Jennar Kitty!

a is for age: 22

b is for beer of choice: NONE! sXe! thank yah vury muchness <3

c is for career right now: Art Student and Im Loving it Fer Shur!

d is for your dog's name: Scotty *hes my moms dogggy tho..*

e is for essential item you use everyday: my date book

f is for favorite TV show at the moment: 30 Rock (OMG that show is sooo fregin funny!)

g is for favorite game: UNO!!!!! AND I WILL BEAT ANY CHALENGER!!! hahaha :)

h is for hometown: Attleboro

i is for instruments you play: Painting?

j is for favorite juice: I know its not a juice but : Rasberry Iced Tea

k is for whose butt you'd like to kick: im not saying. but shes related to me by marrage.... See if you can guess! lmao

l is for last restaurant you ate at: Wendies (it was grose... i think im finaly getting sick of fast food..)

m is for marriage: im not but some day it will be to Davey <3333 Hes my One And Only, Forever and All ways. wve been together 4 months now. but known eacother for almost 5 and a half.

n is for Number of Piercings: 3

o is for overnight hospital stays: too many..

p is for people you were with today: Mom, Alex, People in my art class, Joe and i cant rember her name... shes gonna kill me lol

q is for what you do with your quiet time: read. or leating to music, or doodle or eat. lol

r is for biggest regret: i dont have any :-P

s is for status: Taken, by My Davey!

t is for time you woke up today: 7:50am

u is for if you are unique: Yes I am! <333

v is for vegetable you love: Potato!

w is for worst habit: my horrid un healthey eating :(

x is for x-rays you've had: id say like wow um... a lott id say like 10 maby more

y is for yummy food you ate today: the rest of my st.Paddys Day Browny my mom bought me <3 it was sooo good!

z is for zodiac sign: Leo, and im the year of the Rat





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I Get To Stay Home Tomrow And Paint!!!

yay!!!


*lotza home work*

But Yay! Soo Funn!!


okee byes <33


-Teh Jennar!

i donno i just am.

i had lunch with my dad today.

ive missed him. some times we argue at out lunch dates. but this time was fun. we laughed and talked a lot. and he gave me the rest of his fries to bring home *like he allways does lol*

so yay! free lunch and agan free dinner :)

he told me a funny story about my step mother and a turky. it was cute. even tho i dont like her that much nor does she like me. :-P

and i told him about my up comming trip to Boston w/ Davey and his buddys. to ANIME BOSTON 07!

im soo excited!! hehe

finaly something to look forward to agan :)



spring break is almost over :(

and i have some home work to do..... that i am negelcting. but stupid me left my paints and stuff in moms trunk and it fregin snowd. so 1. my paints are prolli semi solid right now and 2. i soo cant go get them out cuz there snow in the little crevis of her trunk and no mater how much snow i get off its gonna get my bords wet. plus its still snowing.


but then there twomorow. where it will be nocer out and dave will be comming over and ill bable to paint a willing subjest tomorow :)

yay. dont worry people no nakid ness lol


hehe

tho i think id like that too much :-P

i miss him. i *hearts* him soo much!

and i realy realy like this cd i bought in itunes.


ooo anddd!

im feeling a whole lot better after my theripy sesion today.

dr. derr told me about a new thing i could do to pull my self out of the flas backs. that will deffently work. :)

like my self or someone else slapping the bottom of my foot. its something like what accupuncture does.

and its also a good grounding teckneak.

gah! i soo cant spell. i do try i swear. im not stupid. i just have trubble with it



stupid lerning dissdabilys..


but im good fer shure!

i realy realy love my life!


(most days!)


some thing could be better and i have what it takes to change most of them and im working on it. :)

nothings set in stone. things may be set up in the stars one way but you have the power to change then no one else.


well acualy more so you have the power to chage what way you react to everything in your life.



yeaterday i met this realy cool lady Cleo in the cab. she was sooo cool. we talked about anything and everything. she kept calling me a free sprit. i like that. she was so sweet.

i hope i see her agan some day. if not this life then hopfully the next.


she said i should be in the mental health field. she thinks id be good at helping people like us. and i agree and i have also been told that on many a acasions :)


okee im off to play on myspace :)


I LOVE YOU GUYS!


im realy sorry vinessa. i hope you can forgive me i wasent in the right fram of mind.




-Jennar Kitty-

im back together w/ dave :)

i broke it off with dave :(

just thought i should let you all know..